This is just a random story that you might find interesting…IF you are into “getting to know me more intimately”.
I recently had the opportunity to catch up with an old flame I haven’t seen in 23 years. We’ll call him ‘Thor’ because he’s a lot of man.
When I was around 16/17 year old I had a very unique three-way relationship with Thor & his best friend that lasted almost a year. They were six years older than me, straight but adventurous & we had multiple threesomes. We partied a lot together aside from having sex…and we were close friends. There was an amazing amount of respect & affection considering how tawdry it might sound.
I remember being in a car with them tearing down a dirt road with the music blasting (O Fortuna ~ Carmina Burana: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXFSK0ogeg4 ) smashing mailbox’s with a baseball bat. Hey, I came from a small, rural place & “mailboxing” is a thing that bored young people do. It was thrilling & I felt alive! We didn’t get into an accident that time but we did another time. The car was totaled but I was fine. We had a lot of crazy times. Lots of booze & drug fueled parties.
I was closer with Thor and if it had been a few years later who knows where it might have gone but it wasn’t & circumstances caused us to part ways. He wanted a family & I was too young. Way too young & not inclined that way. He got back with an ex he still had feeling for & I moved away. I didn’t stay in contact feeling it was for the best. Through the grapevine I heard he married her & had a couple kids. That’s about all I knew.
Fast forward 23 years. We recently met up & it was amazing to reconnect. Life has not been kind to him and it was an enormous pleasure for him to lay eyes on me again. Thor had tried to track me down over the years unsuccessfully & thought of me often. He & his friend had often said to each other: “I hope we didn’t mess that kid up.” I find that so incredible. Of course society could look at the situation & jump to all kinds of judgements…but I was there & I can tell you that my relationship with them was one of the highlights of my youth. It opened my mind up to the idea of different types of relationships beyond standard, traditional monogamy. I learned that sex could be dirty fun AND respectful. It was liberating & educational. I am very grateful for the experience & have nothing but warm memories and feelings of affection for both of them.
When I told him about the whole “Mistress T” thing he laughed & said he wasn’t the least bit surprised. He explained that even back then it was obvious I was a very ambitious, determined & motivated person. He knew I would do well at whatever I chose. He also said that I was one of the most sexual people he had ever met so he always wondered if I’d end up doing some kind of work in the adult industry. I have always had a high sex drive but in my teens it was a force to be reckoned with. Thor & his best friend were not my only lovers at that time (& I wasn’t their only lover). Another thing about bored young people in rural places: they tend to fuck like it’s a hobby. In our ‘group’ everyone fucked everybody else. It seems extreme thinking back on it now, how much sex we all had, but after reading about our hunter gatherer roots in “Sex At Dawn” I now understand our behavior was actually far more ‘natural’ than pairing bonding or abstinence.
There were moments with Thor where it felt like we were transported back to that time. When I looked into his smiling eyes he seemed the same. But in other moments I could see how our lives have gone in very different directions & 23 years of living changes a person a great deal. I wish I could bring a little bit of that ‘teen spirit’ back, that feeling of thrilling sexual freedom, of everything being new. What a magical time! They say youth is wasted on the young. What a bitter sweet truth. I’m reminded that every phase of our life has value & nostalgia will make us remember it fondly. I will endeavor to make the most of this phase of my life. The maturity, experience & security I’ve built up while still having the health & energy to fully enjoy it.
So there’s a little slice of personal stuff for fans who crave to know more about me:-)