The urge to give up control…

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I recently created a custom vid for a chastity enthusiast who wanted to take things to the next level. He requested three months worth of instructions. He wanted me to decide when he could release himself from chastity and cum. He made a few suggestions for humiliating tasks, cross dressing for example, putting things in his butt, cock and ball abuse, etc.

I didn’t think much of the request. It seemed to me to be something most fans would not be interested in but he paid the going rate for a custom vid, so I created it.

Chastity from a distance sort of works if the wearer is completely denied and the woman is the key holder, though that can be a bit of a dangerous thing. Chastity or orgasm control from a distance where there are opportunities for the slave to unlock himself and have a release…well, I’m skeptical, to be honest. Men are not known for having the most self control and I wouldn’t have any way of knowing if he cheats.

I incorporated tasks in the vid to keep tabs on his progress, for him to send me pics, for example, to send written reports. I also put forth a tax for cheating, a financial tribute to me if he messes up, though as I already said, how would I know? Trusting a stranger to be honest & pay if he cums when he’s not supposed to…well…

So I released the vid on my clips store and was shocked at the number of sales and emails that have come in in the first week. I’m dubious that most will stay on track for three months but we’ll see.

The curious thing for me is the urge to give up control. I can tell you that if someone tried to stop me from having orgasms or tried to have any control over how or when I came they’d likely soon find themselves picking their teeth up off the ground with broken fingers.

I’ve been in this gig for over a decade. I’m not naive but the oddness of some of it is still not lost on me & I can sometimes still be surprised. It’s easy to take things for granted: “Yes, of course men love being told when to cum, that’s what about 80% of my vids are about.” But then I really think about it & try to switch places. Giving the control to someone else with such an intimate, personal act. Why, tho?

I wonder if it starts for some by making a game of it? Jerking off to porn & holding off cumming until a certain point. Then the leap of having the woman in the vid tell you to cum. Hot, hot, hot. Ka-pow! Then, how about if she denies your orgasms too? All the better when you finally get to cum?

Anyway, random thoughts on a vid that has very quickly made it into clips4sale’s overall top 50. A vid that has sold better in the same time frame as a really hot sex scene. So my fans would prefer to see me clothed & telling them how & when to cum than see me fucking? Really? Okay then.

I wonder how many of those caged up fella’s make it through the three months? Anyone care to lay bets?

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Here’s the link to buy it if you want to give it a go: https://www.clips4sale.com/studio/23869/19220403/Chastity+Instructions+-+INTERACTIVE%21

xo

Mistress T

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Combo Improv

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I posted this on my twitter feed: “Quick: request a topic for a blog post!”

The first few responses were: 24/7 slavery, humiliation & cuckolding training, edging & electro CBT.

I thought it might be fun to combine all those in a little made up story. Welcome to “Combo Improv!” Here it is:

After a short, whirlwind romance, you ask me to marry you. It wasn’t much of a surprise since I’d been teasing you like crazy but told you I wanted to wait until after we were married to have sex. I had let you see me half naked, we’d cuddled…one time you even blew your load in your shorts rubbing against my butt while watching TV when you thought I was asleep. I had only pretended to be asleep though & I called you on it before you’d even finished cumming. The surprise & humiliation ruined your orgasm.

I laughed at the wet spot in front of your pants as you blushed & tried to hide it. I then got more serious & shamed you for being inappropriate, for having so little control & for disrespecting me. I think I heard you crying a little in the bedroom as you were changing & cleaning up. That amused me.

On our wedding night you were SO excited thinking we were finally going to have sex. I had other plans for you though & presented you with a device that fit around your cock & balls. I had a remote & could give you a little (or bigger!) electric shock when ever it suited me. I planned to turn you into my cuckold & my 24/7 slave.

Of course you were reluctant but after I modeled the special lingerie for our honeymoon you came around. Or rather your dick decided for you.

I fitted the device around your cock & balls, then gave you a little tester shock. You jumped & your rock hard cock started to go soft. Perfect.

I stroked the sensitive flesh of your cock with my finger tips & you quickly grew to full attention & started drooling pre-cum.

Stroking you lightly like that I told you about your new reality as my slave & cuckold. How you’d learn to always put my needs before yours. How my pleasure will give you pleasure. How I’d train you to orally please me & worship my pussy. You will wait on me hand & foot, not beg for attention or argue with my choices.

You’ll also be responsible for all the household chores & maintenance, cooking, cleaning, paying the bills, etc. You could choose to do all of it yourself or hire staff for some things. It only matters to me that I never have to think about such mundane things.

I will also take lovers as I see fit & although that might seem difficult at first you’ll learn to get enjoyment from seeing me have satisfying sex with other men. We’ll be starting right now, on our honeymoon. I’ll have a lover & you’ll watch. You can stroke yourself & keep yourself on the edge of orgasm. If you misbehave or get too close to orgasm I will shock your cock & balls. If you are a good boy at the end of the adventure I’ll let you cum…

Deep down this is what you really wanted, even if you didn’t know if consciously. You were attracted to me because I’m a confident, naturally Dominant woman. You wanted to marry me even though I denied you sex. I humiliated you in many ways & you put up with it…I bet you even liked it secretly. I married you because I could see in you the potential to be a great slave. You are easily trained & compliant. You are naturally submissive & you’ve always been very sweet to me. I can already tell you care about my needs more than yours. I think we’ll be very happy together.

xo

Mistress T

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Who is the man who gets what u want?

Who made this mess? ....& who is going to clean it up???

Who made this mess?
….& who is going to clean it up???

Do you ever wonder who gets to be with me? Like really gets to be with me in the most intimate ways?

A few years ago I was fairly public about being single & looking but I wasn’t as vocal about my relationship when one did develop. Trying to balance some kind of private life with my public persona can be tricky. Part of me wants to keep some things just for myself & part of me wants y’all to know a lot about me to reduce the objectification of adult performers & sex workers. Like me shouting: “Hey, look at me! I’m a regular person like everyone else. I just have an unusual job. I grocery shop, I binge watch Netflix, I have complex relationships with family & friends, I’ve been in love, had my heart broken, I’ve made mistakes & hurt people I cared about, I wear flannel pj’s, I have opinions…I am a human, not just a sex doll with a pulse!”

Which brings me to this post…about my partner, which I know many of you are curious about. The reason I do it now is because I believe that he could actually help some of you. I’ll explain.

As you can well imagine, I’m not everyone’s cup of tea. Is it hard to be in a relationship with a “Dominatrix” or “Porn Star”? Sure, for some guys, however, my partner is the most emotionally mature man I’ve ever met. There is no power dynamic in our relationship. Neither is Dominant. We are equals. It’s the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in.

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He’s a high level communicator, intuitive, intelligent, empathetic, open-minded & sexually skilled. He’s self assured because he brings qualities to a relationship that are lacking in many men. How do most men learn to find & build a healthy relationship? How do most men learn to be better partners & lovers? Although the education exists it isn’t mainstream & I’ll tell you, unfortunately the majority of men aren’t skilled lovers or good partners. That’s just the harsh truth.

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Over the years I’ve had requests from fans who wanted to serve my lovers or boyfriends. He’s been dabbling in that, chatting with & doing cam with a few of my fans. He’s rather good at it & enjoys it. It’s become a fun little hobby of his & sometimes we go on cam together with my fans which is fun for me too.

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Beyond fetish sessions (laughing at my sissy cuckolds & slaves who get off on humiliation, forced bi or Financial Domination) I feel like some fans could benefit from a bit of coaching. This is the guy who ‘got’ ME. The guy who won my heart & sexually satisfies me. He is superior for that reason alone & all my cuckolds should worship him for that…but other guys who just want advice on how to communicate with women in real life, especially the type of women they crave: self-assured, successful, Dominate women. How to start & build a meaningful relationship with that kind of woman. How to please a woman sexually. Sex tips & individualized training on being a better partner & lover. He can do that & the domino effect is some women will be happier with better men. It’s ninja-level FemDom when you think about it: my good man training men to better please other women. I love it!

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Sure, a lot of you will just want to go on cam for 10 minutes & jerk off while he laughs at you & tells you that you’re inferior…& it’s hot because he is a superior male who gets to fuck the woman you’ve been jerking off to for years…& it’s hot because he’s a good looking younger bi guy who gets off on the idea of making my cuckolds suck his cock & eat his cum…& yes, he is happy to do that…but he can also do so much more.

Of course ur not gay…but u can’t deny that’s a great ass…

Admit it, u like his ass...ur drawn to it...

Admit it, u like his ass…ur drawn to it…

...so drawn to it that I bet u'd lick it if I told u to. Now it's all u'll be able to think about...

…so drawn to it that I bet u’d lick it if I told u to.
Now it’s all u’ll be able to think about…

For example, he can assist with erectile dysfunction & orgasm control…he’s a professional tantra practitioner & works solo or does double sessions with the very talented Olivia Jade (http://oliviajade.net/). Olivia is one of, if not the most highly regarded certified tantra practitioner in Canada. She helps a lot of men with ED & premature ejaculation, among other things. I highly recommend her services as well.

So, if you want to ‘serve my man’ (via skype cam or messenger/email ) in the usual dirty ways: cuckolding, forced bi, humiliation, jerk off instruction, cum eating instruction, etc. & you’re in a position to be generous, reach out to me & I’ll coordinate it. We can both be involved or you can serve just him. Or, if you think you could benefit from chatting with an evolved man who in my experienced opinion is an expert at having a healthy relationship AND is also highly sexually skilled…send me a note:

MsT@MistressT.net

As I mentioned, this is just a fun little hobby for him & his time is limited so he will give his attention to those who are the most generous & enjoyable to deal with. This is a rare & valuable opportunity so conduct yourself accordingly. That means:

  • communicate clearly about what you’re hoping for/wanting/what you’re into
  • be ready & able to tribute to show you’re serious
  • be respectful & reliable

Those things go for me as well!

You only live once!

Mistress T

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Meeting fans in real life.

"Tell me more..."

“Tell me more…”

I was recently contacted by a fan who had been reading my blog for years & wanted to meet me in person but not for a session, just to talk. He valued my time so offered a respectable tribute. I love meeting fans in this way. I often use them as “muses” when filming vids as they usually represent the typical guy who watches my vids.

I arrived at the cafe a few minutes early, did a scan for him. I didn’t know what he looked like yet so I was at a slight disadvantage. No one seemed to get an instant boner or looked flushed so I got my tea & sat down. He approached me a moment later, shy but with a friendly face. It put me at ease.

We made small talk and I soon discovered that he had lived an interesting life as a real cuckold. His story fascinated me. He had met his wife in university & knew of her reputation for being promiscuous & cheating on her boyfriends. That didn’t deter him, it actually attracted him to her. He didn’t struggle with it even at a young age. He accepted that as a part of his sexuality.

He was turned on thinking about her being with other men...lots of other men...

He was turned on thinking about her being with other men…lots of other men…

They dated and quickly fell into a serious relationship. In many ways they had a normal, happy relationship. They even had a decent sex life but he knew she had a wild side & suspected she was straying. Eventually she stopped even attempting to keep her dalliances a secret as he never made a fuss about things she was sloppy about covering up. Their communication got better & she would tell him about her affairs, sharing details, even include him in different ways. He loved going down on her & occasionally having intercourse with her after she had been with someone else.

She developed a taste for black men & had a several black lovers. Eventually there was less & less intercourse between she & her cuckolded husband but their relationship was still good. The cuckolding was hot for both of them. He loved the idea of her getting satisfied by black men and developed a ‘fetish’ for black bulls along with her.

Black bulls & cuckolding go together like peas & carrots...

Black bulls & cuckolding go together like peas & carrots…

I know. This all sounds cliche & made up. He could have been lying to me but I believed him. I cross examined him & dug for more details. How he felt about this or that, etc. He simply gave me the facts.

This relationship lasted for quite a few years & eventually their marriage ended but he assured me that the reasons for divorce had nothing to do with the cuckolding part of their life.

I asked him what he was looking for from me and he replied that he wasn’t sure. He had taken a break from porn, sex & all fetish activities after the divorce for quite awhile. He had only been reading my blog. He felt connected to me in a cerebral way & simply wanted to connect with me in real life, with no expectations or plans. Just a chat. Just for the heck of it. When I asked how he felt about me writing about him in my blog he said he would find it thrilling. So here it is. What will happen next?

On the topic of meeting fans in real life I recently met with another fan & our encounter was interesting in a whole different way. He & I had done a cam session first. He was into humiliation so I verbally humiliated him while he did humiliating things like dressing up in women’s cloths, sucked a dildo, etc. He excitedly explained what a loser he was trying to get me to laugh at him. The laughing was what turned him on. He explained that he was still a virgin in his mid 20’s, that he fantasized about sucking cock all the time, etc.

Cam session antics...

Cam session antics…

The cam session went so well he requested a private session. I suggested we go for a bite to eat first to get acquainted in person. Over breakfast things took an unexpected turn. As he shared more & more details about his pathetic life I saw that this went beyond fantasy. This guy really needed to make some serious changes. That he was on a downward trajectory and I just couldn’t be a part of that.

I made it clear that his fetish for being humiliated was perfectly fine within the parameters of a fantasy but that outside of that he needed to not be a loser. I won’t go into details on specifically what changes I advised him to make but broadly they were pertaining to physical health as well as emotional health. Our meeting was a real boner-killer for him. He cried at one point. But not in the hot, humiliating way. The way you cry when you’re touched by someone’s kindness. Pretty much the last thing he expected or wanted to pay for but for christ sake, I have a conscience. I couldn’t take his money when I felt like I could make a positive difference in his life. He has written since that he is implementing some of the changes I recommended & he’s grateful for my help. Time will tell. I plan to keep tabs on him as I’m curious to see if I really did help or not.

A lot of people have fantasies & fetishes that they explore & play with in a healthy way. You can be a groveling, boot licking, piss drinking, cock sucking sissy bitch and ALSO be a strong, balanced, healthy, person with high self esteem. You don’t have to be a fucking loser 24/7. You don’t have to choose one or the other. Have your damn cake & eat it too.

Which brings me full circle to the first guy in this blog post. He had balanced a very normal & healthy life with his kink. Sure, he admitted he had had periods of slight obsession, where he indulged a little too heavily in cuckolding porn, no one is perfect…but he was otherwise very self-aware, emotionally healthy & “normal”.

Take care of yourselves, eh.

Cheers,

Mistress T

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Bijou Steal visiting Toronto!

Exciting news for slaves & perverts in Ontario! My very good friend Bijou Steal will be in downtown Toronto the night of Monday Oct 29th through late night Thursday Nov 1st.

I have worked with & filmed with Ms. Steal. She is very skilled & wickedly sadistic. You can see her in several vids on my members site (or clips store) by searching the key word “Steal”):

http://www.MistressT.net/results/results/Steal

 
Her preferred activities: strap on play, foot worship, humiliation, clothed face sitting, & corporal punishment.

Her web address: http://www.MsSteal.com

Her email address: bijousteal@yahoo.ca

Bijou Steal – Classy & Cruel

Bijou Steal – Ballerina Gone Bad

Bijou Steal – Latex Goddess

 

My Porn Can Be Therapeautic

I know some of you are expecting a post about my recent trip to LA. They say patience is a virtue…you’ll have to wait until next week when I get photo’s from Glen at MeanBitches to put in my post. I’ll also make a post soon with pics from my Maui trip, where I am right now.

I received this letter awhile ago and wanted to share it. It’s a thank you letter from a fan who I created a custom vid for. You can skip past the first paragraph where he basically just says how great it was…it gets a lot more interesting. It’s a bit of insight into the minds of those who are into alternative or unusual fetishes.

I’m often asked ‘why’ a guy would want to jerk off to a vid of me making fun of his penis size (or of me threatening to crush him under my giant foot…or of me pretending to be his cheating wife fucking another man…etc. etc.) Every individual has their own story. See below:

 

Mistress T,
Please do not think that my long delay in replying to you after seeing the custom video you made per my request is an indication of dissatisfaction. On the contrary, the video has had such a powerful effect on me, an extraordinarily personal and positive effect, that I have needed to process my feelings for a few weeks before reaching out to you. It is the best money I have ever spent.
It is incredible. You did an exceptional job–Oscar worthy, as I expected from knowing your work. I joined your site after seeing some of your videos because I knew you would be perfect for my fantasies. The video was extraordinary; exactly what I wanted and more importantly, needed. I am sending you more money as a bonus for the video because of what an exceptional job you did and how pleased I am with your work. You followed my instructions exactly and filled in the empty spaces in my narrative perfectly with your performance. You “got” the character and the theme perfectly.

The video has helped me process my feelings about what happened to me in real life that you role-played in the video; abusive treatment by my mother. I don’t want to be specific about what happened–or use the name of the video–for the sake of privacy.  Needless to say, I have had great difficulty in forming romantic and sexual relationships with women in my life, not because of issues about which she abused me, but due to low self-esteem. I’ve had decades of therapy. Despite having some partial validation that the one particularly egregious abusive incident occurred from reading records kept by a professional who treated me as a child when it occurred, the incident and question about what exactly happened has haunted me ever since.

The video fills a great need in my life. My decades of therapy have not rid me of my obsession with the subject of penis size, and I have spent extraordinarily high amounts on phone sex trying to re-enact or talk about the issue and that one event. This video has changed me–positively; I’m more at peace with my past now. It also is something I will have forever for when I feel the need to re-experience the abuse as a coping measure, far superior to a phone conversation.

Your beauty and my extreme lust for you (I so want to fuck you senseless—you have the most perfectly round, sexy rear-end and everything else that drive me mad with desire for you) adds greatly to the experience. That physical dimension along, with the strong psychological dimension involved for me, is a turn-on of another sort that synergistically mixes with the psychological stimulation to create an extreme response in me, pleasurable and all-encompassing. My first view of the video produced the best, most powerful masturbatory orgasm of my life. It was as if decades of mental confusion and sexual tension were ejaculated in one very long orgasm. Indescribable, unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. In subsequent viewings, I cannot hold out for the entire video to come–it makes me come several times in short order because it affects me so deeply.

The video has been very helpful for me in being able to open up to my feelings about the event. Your role-play performance is so powerful and dead-on that I feel like I am reliving the experience in a way, allowing me to feel and think things I have suppressed for decades. I had heard from various people, including a former girlfriend who was a psychologist, that really good role-play can be very effective in helping process negative life events. I now know that to be true. Whatever I have gained from my therapy in dealing with the effects of the abuse, being transported back into the situation in the position of being a son with an overpowering mother that I feel when I watch the video produces feelings and thoughts that therapy has not been able to draw out of me. Nor has phone sex been able to provoke strongly the powerful emotions and thoughts. The combination of seeing, hearing, desiring, and being talked to as I was talked to in the incident allows me to feel the pain so that I can process it in a safe, non-threatening environment.

So, thank you very, very much. Your performance has changed me, improved my psychological relationship to this difficult event, lessening the pain I feel. I can process the real event more easily psychologically given the ability to lose myself in the fantasy for some of the negative rumination I endure sometimes resulting from what happened to me. I now have a great, very intense multi-sensory outlet for exorcising some of those demons, when I need it, thanks to you. I will benefit from having this video as a way to deal with those extremely difficult feelings and thoughts for the rest of my life.
I expected a great job by you, but the results far exceed my hopes and expectations. Wow.
Thank you.
A “fan for life and satsified customer”

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