A kinky short story…

Posted on January 6, 2015 by Mistress T

“Why do you pretend to be shy?”

I replied that I didn’t like intimidating people and I wanted to be treated like a normal person.

“Darling, you couldn’t be normal if you tried. There’s a boldness in you that makes mere mortals want to bow down to you, follow your orders, gain your favor, listen to your advice.”

He was wearing a leather fetish dog mask and collar but not much else. His body was strong and toned. The leather micro shorts at least left something to the imagination…until a friend whispered in my ear that he has a huge cock.

He slowly lowered himself to his knees, his strong muscles putting on a nice display. He took on the stance of an obedient dog and gently offered himself as my pet.

I stroked my leather gloved hand over his back and he shivered. I removed my glove & touched him again. This time I shivered. This was going to be fun.

Best,
Mistress T

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Jian Ghomeshi: Rough Sex vs. Assault

Posted on November 4, 2014 by Mistress T

Jian Ghomeshi

In case you don’t know who Jian Ghomeshi is he’s the CBC broadcaster who was recently fired over assault allegations. He made a very public Facebook post defending himself & it has been all over the news for the last week.

Several women allege that he hit them with a closed fist or open hand; choked them with his hands around their neck to the point that they almost passed out; covered their nose and mouth so that they had difficulty breathing; and verbally abused them before, during, and after sex acts. The women have said that they did not consent to this behavior.

Ghomeshi said it was “consensual”. He admits to being into rough sex.

Most say this is not a conversation about kinky sex, it’s a conversation about assault. I tend to agree but since I’m in the fetish scene I’m going to focus on the kink angle.

If Ghomeshi has alternative sexual interests, like cross-dressers, foot fetishists, pony boys, diaper play fans, etc…it can be challenging to find partners to play out fantasies with. Ghomeshi admits to being into rough sex. It sounds like he likes to choke, smother & slap around his partners for sexual jollies. This is actually only a problem when the partner does not consent to that & isn’t into it (or if he takes it too far….um, “closed fists” might be too far dude)….but THIS is the part a lot of people will have a hard time with: there are women who really get off on that kind of play. They are out there. I bet Ghomeshi has even found a few, maybe even introduced this kind of play to a few women who didn’t even know they liked it.

It’s a complicated issue. Especially if his fetish hinges on the women NOT being into it…then that’s just straight up assault. But what if he’s just been really bad at finding like-minded sex partners….and/or really bad at negotiating the parameters of a rough sex ‘scene’?

So to be clear, yes, I am a women saying that some women would want this kind of rough sex…in fact, if Ghomeshi doesn’t end up in prison I bet he’ll never have to look very far to find cooperative bed buddies again. Sure, most women will hate him for being a scum bag woman beater…personally I see a possibility that it was a little left of that. I see a man with sexual urges he was unable to control, a man who did not respect women enough to ensure he had their clear consent for rough play & a man who took things too far. So a weak, stupid man. A man who did not know how to get his kinks fulfilled in a healthy way. Possibly a man with some other issues…but I’m not a therapist, again, I’m focusing mainly on the kink angle here.

So for us in the kink community here are the take-away lessons:

– It’s never okay to physically hurt another person without their explicit consent and boundaries discussed & agreed upon.

– Even if you are playing the submissive role you must speak up if you are not okay with what is happening (and/or ensure boundaries were clearly discussed before). Sex games aside you must take care of yourself & assert your right to be respected.

None of us are mind readers. Communicate!

This is an excellent unbiased new article with all the facts (updated today):

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/the-jian-ghomeshi-scandal-what-we-know-so-far/article21379820/

Side note: A lot of the coverage on this issue is about creating a safe place for victims of violence and sexual harassment to come forward. I am in complete support of that & mean no disrespect to any potential victims. I have chosen to take a closer look at one aspect of this situation with a BDSM perspective.

Best,
Mistress T

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A special re-connection…

Posted on October 20, 2014 by Mistress T

Looking back…

Way back when I was a new Pro Domme I had a house boy nicknamed “Puppy”. We had an amazingly comfortable & delightful relationship. I didn’t know then how lucky I was. I have since realized that most so-called house boys end up being high-maintenance, drama-plagued disappointments.

Puppy was anything but a disappointment. He tried really hard to please me in every way & he usually achieved that goal. He was a pleasure to have around but after several months of excellent service his work took him away & he sadly left me.

I was never able to replace him & eventually gave up on house boys & personal servants all together. I remembered him fondly but didn’t hear from him for years.

Last week I received this email:

Hi Mistress T,

You will have to search your memory banks to remember me and I hope that your memories might be fond ones. You named me ‘puppy’ and I was your service slave for some time when you were first starting out as a professional Dominatrix.
I saw you recently at a fetish event and I wanted to say ‘hi’ but not surprisingly you were always surrounded by people. I was not sure if you would remember me after so long and did not want make you feel awkward if I walked up and you did not remember me.

I never said so this in your presence because I always got tongue tied but you are the most intelligent, graceful, articulate, thoughtful, funny, creative and all around amazing woman that I have ever had the honor of knowing. You are also one of the most honorable, ethical and integrity filled people that I have ever met and I have had the good fortune to know lots of quality people in my life. You always conducted yourself with grace and class and I have always admired all of those traits in you even after I was no longer serving you.

Thank you for teaching me all that you did. And thank you for your patience with my many mistakes. I delighted in pleasing you with my cooking. I loved the idea that putting meals in your freezer was helping to take care of you, not that you needed to be taken care of, but simply as a symbol of my devotion.

I don’t really know why it has taken me this long to have the balls to contact you and say ‘hello’. I understand if you are too busy and/or have no interest in returning my email. I am happy with the simple thought that this email might please you or bring even a brief smile to that beautiful face of yours.

Even if I do not hear back from you I wish you continued success in all you do. Though that is really a given with your talent and intelligence. I hope that your life is filled with much love, peace and happiness.

Your puppy

I was delighted to receive this email, naturally. As I mentioned, he served me in the beginning when I was still figuring things out. A lot has happened in the last eight years. I invited him to join me at a fetish event Saturday night. I received this email after:

Dearest Mistress T,

It was absolutely wonderful to see you last night. I really enjoyed reconnecting with you again. Thank you for your kind words and for graciously allowing me to dance with you and your slave. Somehow you have grown even more charming, witty, graceful and beautiful than I remembered. Trust me when I say that is no mean feat.

I truly hold you in the highest regard. Not just because you are ‘kinkyasfuck’. But simply as a human being who has the courage to live life honestly and on her own terms.

With much affection,
puppy

I’m not sure yet what place puppy might hold in my life in the future but it’s nice to have him back & it would be nice to have him around. We’ll see. So many slaves, fans & clients have come & gone over the years. Some have stuck around but the nature of the business is that there are many single-serving relationships. It really means something to me to have longer term relationships.

Speaking of long-term vs. short-term…I’m excited to see one of my longest running, most devoted slaves in Orlando just before Christmas! He has been with me for years & we’ve followed each others ups & downs…the relationship is strong & mutually fulfilling. He’s taking me to Disney & I’m SO looking forward to it!

At this point I plan to only see him during my stay but if I end up with any free time I’ll contact those who have applied to be on an Orlando contact list (email: MsT@MistressT.net with “Orlando” in the subject line.)
Best,
Mistress T

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UK: Spring Trip 2014

Posted on May 22, 2014 by Mistress T

Mmmm…England, it was nice to be inside you again…

I’ve just returned from my spring trip to the UK. I go to the UK every spring & fall to film content & connect with Sidonia Von Bork from The English Mansion & my kinky friends.

This was a fun-filled & relaxing trip. More like a vacation than anything. Lots of wonderful meals out, exploring the English countryside & adorable little villages, going to spa’s, hanging out in the hot tub, etc.

I spent most of my time outside of the city of London but I did come in for one perfectly executed night. I arrived by train, a fan picked me up & took me to get measured for custom boots, took me for lunch & then dropped me at my hotel where I had a couple of awesome sessions. I actually came into London specifically for a special regular client who comes to the UK from another European country just to see me…which is surprisingly common. Guys come from Ireland, Scotland, The Netherlands, etc. just to see me when I’m in the UK. I love that!

My one evening in London I went for dinner with a good friend & thoroughly enjoyed rich conversation. At this point of my life I’d rather really connect with someone & go on a quiet midnight stroll around Notting Hill than go out clubbing. The next morning the fan from the day before picked me up & took me lingerie & chocolate shopping, then to Camden Town for shopping & sight seeing…then lunch before dropping me off at the train station. It was so wonderful to have a chauffeur & tour guide! My quick trip into London couldn’t have gone more perfectly.

Me being chauffeured around London…lingerie & chocolates!

I had such a lovely time in the UK, relaxing while also being productive filming awesome smut for my site, The English Mansion & Nikki Whiplash…I didn’t want to come home to Vancouver & face the mess at my new apartment. I moved less than a week before I left for the UK & as I type this blog I’m surrounded by chaos. I have a lot of work ahead of me unpacking & settling into my new home. For the moment, lets look at pics from my trip & look forward to my next trip in the fall!

A few snaps from my day with Nikki Whiplash who I’ve had the pleasure of filming with often in the past. You can find me on her ballbusting site as well as facesitting & some other fun stuff:

Nikki Whiplash & I reunited for kinky exploits.

Still want to get between her thighs? Beware of Nikki Whiplash’s severe scissors!

Action shot & tweet about Nikki & I ballbusting this perv. (Follow Niiki Whiplash on twitter! She probably won't smash your nuts.)

Action shot & tweet about Nikki & I ball busting this perv. (Follow Nikki Whiplash on twitter! She probably won’t smash your nuts.)

I love the diabolical mind of Sidonia Von Bork who never runs out of creative ways to use & torment slaves. We always have a blast!

Inescapable bondage & no one to hear his screams…Sidonia Von Bork & I prepare our toy…

Ah, the foolish smile of a slave who doesn't know what Sidonia Von Bork has in store for him...

Ah, the nervous smile of a slave who doesn’t know what Sidonia Von Bork has in store for him…

…presenting: Slave in a sac! You could win him & a new dinette…spin the wheel!

Tickle fight?

Motorboat?

Whipping is even more fun than knitting!

Lots of comfy furniture to sit on…but noooo…I chose the face of some weirdo jerking off in a cage…seems reasonable…

Best,
Mistress T

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What do you see?

Posted on April 16, 2014 by Mistress T

What do you see when you look at the picture above? Do you see a Dominant, sexual woman? Maybe I’m inviting you to crawl up those stairs & service my feet or pussy? Do you think I’d want you to fuck me? Can you see the crotch of my panties are wet? Does that tell you I’m already horny & ready? Or does it imply that I’ve already had sex & another man’s cum is seeping out?

The position: legs wide open…along with the look on my face…does it communicate sexual power? Is it intimidating? If you were actually there would you have the balls to actually come closer & try to please me?

Now look at it in a different way…is the picture objectifying? Although not nude, it is overtly sexual & you can almost make out some details of my vagina through the wet crotch. If my expression was a little different, a shy smile & the camera angle was looking down at me…wouldn’t it feel very different? Innocent maybe?

The imbalance of power is so important, isn’t it? Most of the men who read this want me to appear Dominant. They want me to be in control because they so badly crave to give up control. That is the minority though…there are way more images of women portrayed as objects, having things done TO them, etc. As a society, are we naturally more hard wired to find female objectification hot or have we been conditioned to be that way? Even though many of you reading this may not be into female objectification or submissive females…there’s no denying that many, many people are. Not just men either.

There’s a lot more I could say but I’d like to hear from you. Maybe have an open discussion about this rather than just a monologue. There’s a comments section. Please share your thoughts about female objectification, power exchange, etc. Or tell me your first thoughts or what story you created in your mind when you looked at the photo above.

Best,
Mistress T

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The FemDomme Uniform

Posted on March 8, 2014 by Mistress T

How do you recognize a truly Dominant woman?

The ultimate Pro Domme accessory is a slave.

Many imagine a woman wearing leather or latex, maybe a corset, certainly severe high heeled boots or shoes. Maybe stockings & garters, leather or latex gloves, red lipstick & holding a whip. This is the cliche image of a Dominatrix.

My favorite Domme outfit.

Some in the traditional ‘scene’ feel that a real Dominatrix doesn’t get naked. The many Financial Dommes (Fin Dommes) have taken their own twist on that. They never get naked but they will tease in tiny bikini’s or lingerie, slutty dresses, jeans, etc. but rarely in BDSM fetish attire.

Boss of the year?

Being Dominant is about being in control, so some men feel a powerful business suit puts the woman in the drivers seat. On International Women’s Day it’s interesting to note that when it comes to politics, owning or running large corporations or holding senior management positions…the vast majority of the decision makers of the world are still male. Isn’t it a shame that men don’t have more Sarah Palin’s to jerk off to? (That’s sarcasm folks.)

You’ll never look at flannel pj’s the same way again.

Since before anyone gave me permission I’ve been plying my craft in casual attire, domestic clothing, naked…& recently, in my pj’s. This may seem extreme to some but the reality is that many of my fans are more interested in ME than my attire. The majority of guys who want to connect with me on web cam want to talk to me like a real person. They don’t want me to put on a show…which is fortunate because I’m not interested in that either. I perform for the camera when I make vids and I love it, but when it comes to one-on-one connections I prefer to actually have a personal connection.

A lot of guys fantasize about serving me in real life. Well, ya know what? I don’t hang around my home in latex & high heeled boots. My downstairs neighbor is grateful that I wear comfy socks instead.

Need all the bell’s & whistles?

I understand for some guys their fetish is the clothing. They need that traditional Dominatrix outfit to get off. That’s fair & that’s why I go for that look sometimes too. It feels good to get all sexed up & know it makes a man’s knees weak…but if you think that I’m any less Dominant or in control in flannel pj’s, think again.

So, how do you recognize a Dominant woman? The only answer is within you. Does she make you feel submissive?

Best,
Mistress T

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Fancy-Ass Session

Posted on March 27, 2013 by Mistress T

Today was a little surreal.

I was whisked away from my swanky hotel this morning & taken to a kinky hide-away. It was posh. Outfitted with antiques & custom made furniture. Loads of object d’art…fancy stuff, ya know?

I had been paid gobs of money to come here, to share ‘me’, to converse & play.

You can’t buy my love, but you can rent it.

Everything about this place screamed money…& it was a rarely used place just for such a rendezvous. I was given the tour & discovered that tucked away in the antique & custom made furniture there was a multitude of implements for pain & pleasure. Crops, canes, paddles, straps, ass toys, nipple clamps, bondage equipment, etc. etc.

We chatted over expensive champagne. We lunched on delicious healthy food. He took business calls & sounded oh-so-American. Arrogant. Canadians detest this.

Classical music played as we got down to business. Tied down & gagged he took the beating that I needed to give. I’d been dumped yesterday. He didn’t know that but it didn’t matter. He said he wanted to give himself over to me & marks didn’t matter. He laid out dozens of implements he was ready to take…so we both got what we wanted. I never beat a man in anger but when a man wants to be beaten harshly it’s convenient if I have some steam to let off. It keeps me going longer, more enthusiastically.

Do I look like I would beat you THAT hard? *blink blink*

I especially enjoyed the rubber tubed implements that reminded me of…well, never mind.

When it came time for the ass fucking I switched the music to classic rock. I was tired of feeling like I was in Disney’s Fantasia. Journey, The Eagles, etc. guided me on a long slow ass fuck…him tied spread eagle & face down on that beautiful custom made bed. In my mind I was taking him without his consent. So sue me.

Chicks with dicks=good times.

I was several glasses of champagne in at this point & it helped. There are those who say they don’t drink during sessions & I understand that. There are reasons for that, safety reasons mostly…& I don’t usually, for professional reasons…but I’ve seen this client a couple times already. We weren’t doing anything too crazy, nothing I couldn’t do a little bit tipsy. For Christ sake, I’ve beaten & ass fucked hundreds of men by now. He was drinking & I could handle him better if I wasn’t too sober.

At one point I used the hitachi wand on myself while he watched me cum. Sweet success…when you’re paid to have an orgasm.

After our fun he soaked his sore ass in the tub while I sat on one edge, by legs draped over the other side making a beautiful bridge over him. We chatted. Me with a glass of champagne, him in the bubbles, classic rock in the back ground.

Cheers to rich perverts!

I could have gone on about my beautiful lingerie, my heels clicking on the hard wood, my nails grazing his welting skin…but you probably got enough of that in 50 Shades. There’s always several ways to describe a scenario & this was mine.

My god, my life.
Best,
Mistress T

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An unusal day in the life…

Posted on March 26, 2013 by Mistress T

It’s been an unusual day (for me).

I woke up at my Mothers house in Nova Scotia on my last day of my family visit. I opened my email & found out that I’d been dumped (more on that later). Mom drove me to the airport where we had our usual teary farewell before I spent the rest of the day traveling to an American city for a session I’ll have tomorrow.

I’m sitting in my swanky deluxe hotel suite reflecting on my family visit, my dying uncle, my dead relationship & mentally preparing for tomorrow. Between civilized conversations I’ll be administering extreme corporal punishment (beating him with various implements like paddles, canes, etc.), strap-on ass fucking/ass stretching with large butt plugs…& defecating in his mouth if I feel so ‘moved’. He has paid a ridiculous sum to have me come here…as is the case these days. “Make me an offer I can’t refuse” is my new slogan to those who want me to travel to their city for a session.

Another fancy hotel room…such extravagance…heavens-to-betsy.

As for getting dumped this morning…it didn’t come as the biggest surprise. The ‘relationship’ barely had a chance to get off the ground before I left on this trip & I predicted it wouldn’t survive a month away. I’m a hellava drug, but my pull decreases with time & distance. We both knew that we weren’t compatible in the long term but the sex was fantastic enough to keep us both in play anyway. Well, until this morning when the dear boy finally mustered the courage to walk away from the best sex he’s ever had to seek a more compatible mate…one who wants kids (I don’t) & one who’s naked caboose isn’t all over the internet. Yes, as turned on as he was by Mistress T, he felt he could never introduce me to his family, friends & business associates.

When you’re married to your work all other relationships are just affairs. The combination of what I do & how much I travel is poison for relationships. This isn’t the 1st one I’ve lost because I’m not in town enough. It is the 1st one who has had that big of a problem with me being a Dominatrix/Fetish Film Performer. Probably won’t be the last.

“The best way to get over a man is to get under another.” ~ Mae West

I am lining up suitable candidates for when I’m back in Vancouver:-)

Nova Scotia was good except the whole terminally ill uncle thing. Heart breaking.

Here’s some random snaps of other moments like a lobster feed, farm fun & you know you’re at grandma’s house when the toilet paper has it’s own pretty basket.

Wish me luck tomorrow, ya know, with the whole bodily function thing.
Mistress T

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A Nova Scotia visit wouldn’t be complete without a good feeding of lobster!

An old barn that used to be so important for over 100 years, now just a home to cats.

Baby lambs: awwww.

Grandma’s house…such a contrast to how I’ll use the toilet tomorrow.

From Tolerance to Acceptance.

Posted on February 9, 2013 by Mistress T

A friend sent me an article that I could probably write several blog entries on…

Here’s a link to the article:

http://m.theglobeandmail.com/life/relationships/woman-who-walks-her-girlfriend-on-a-leash-responds-we-like-to-have-fun/article8358467/?service=mobile

In a nutshell, a women wrote to an advice columnist about a woman who walked her female partner on a leash around their neighborhood in the daytime.

She didn’t seem to have an issue with lesbianism or even a judgement on what they were doing…she didn’t even seem terribly fussed about having to give a basic explanation to her 4 year old daughter. Her fear was that her daughter would ask her more delicate questions & she kind of wished the couple would take their walks after 9pm when children were less likely to see.

Overall, she seemed pretty tolerant & easy-going. She just didn’t want to have to explain kink play to her 4 year old.

Louis CK has a great quote on talking to your kids about uncomfortable subjects:

Louis CK gives parenting advice?

It would be great if people could go beyond tolerance & work toward acceptance (different strokes for different folks).

I quote from the article (About the woman who was walking her ‘pet’): “She says she fully understands that people immediately think about sex when they see her walking her “sub” (she’s the “domme”), whom she also calls her “pet,” on a leash – but that part of it is purely platonic, like other couples holding hands in public. She assures me their relationship is a loving and consensual one, that her girlfriend had the leash when they met but had never found anyone willing to use it.”

I find it interesting that it’s thinking about kinky sex that makes people uncomfortable. If you see a couple walking hand-in-hand there’s a great chance they’re having sex too…but your mind doesn’t necessarily go to a place where you’re imagining them in the missionary position…& even if it did it probably wouldn’t bother you. But if you see a leash you imagine whips & chains and it’s a different story?

What if we learned from a young age that ‘sex’ was a lot broader than just reproduction. The same way we learn that there’s a lot of different types of foods, different countries & cultures, different religions, different jobs, different music, etc. That different people likes different sexual things the same way they like different food, music, movies, video games, cloths, etc.

Why is kinky sex taboo? Why does the thought of BDSM make so many people uncomfortable?

I had a funny conversation with my father the other day. He said to me he saw a show on TV with a Doministrice…(he can’t pronounce Dominatrix but I knew what he meant) & she said when she had a bad day at work she just slapped a client across the face & she felt better. He asked if it was like that for me (he’s very accepting but only has a loose grasp of what I do for a living).

I told him that I didn’t hit clients out of anger but I had hit a lot of guys who wanted to be hit & it is quite fun. I told him about ballbusting & CBT. He couldn’t believe guys would want to be hit in the balls! He said wouldn’t that be like putting my nipple on the edge of a table and smashing a book down on it? I explained that’s nipple torture & some people like that too. I told him I had kicked guys in the nuts as hard as I could over & over again…& they loved it.

I then said: “But Dad, you understand that’s just my job. You know ME. I’m just a normal, good person.” He agreed and told me that he loved me.

It doesn’t matter whether it’s my job or whether I get off on it or if others gets off on it. These games that people play…Funny enough (from the article), kids seem more capable of grasping the concept that people role-play for fun than adults do. We are not born with prejudice. We learn it.

Best,
Mistress T

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The Year of Chastity: by Slave Self Denial

Posted on January 6, 2013 by Mistress T

Note from Mistress T: this is a new addition to my blog. It’s a piece written by a slave who is into orgasm denial. He has decided to serve me/tribute me for my time to help him with his fantasy. He tributes me daily to communicate with him about his progress/feelings, etc. If he slips up & a bit of cum escapes from his penis he has to pay me a fine, as a way to further motivate him to have self control. He often watches my vids while stroking himself, edging himself close to orgasm but stopping before climax. If you’re into or curious about chastity or orgasm control you may find these entries interesting.

Best,

Mistress T

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A CB-6000 chastity device used to prevent male orgasm.

Beginning of entry from Slave Self Denial:

Everyone makes New year’s resolutions; mine this year is to not have an orgasm in 2013. This would be very difficult to achieve on my own. I have tried unsuccessfully in the past. I generally have no trouble getting to 7 to 10 days, but then it becomes very difficult (especially if I masturbate to the edge of release). If I make it past 2 weeks without orgasm, then it strangely becomes a bit easier for me, but in the past I have not made it beyond 30 days.

This year (“The Year of Chastity”) I have entered into an agreement with Mistress T. I will tribute her $XX for each day I go without release; and $XXX if I should cum (which does not mean having an orgasm — which would invalidate the whole agreement — but rather dribbling out any white semen if I should masturbate too close to the edge). If I should have an unauthorized orgasm the penalty would be fierce and would consist of ?????????

After years of playing with self-denial I have become very good at knowing when to stop. Of course if I watch porn that really excites me it becomes incredibly frustrating, but the frustration is part of the thrill of orgasm denial for me. I enjoy watching cumshot compilations; I stroke myself while watching a guy’s cock get sucked or fucked and just as he releases his load I remove my hand from my cock and watch my stiff, hard cock throb and bounce with no relief from orgasm and ejaculation. I continue doing this until I can’t take it anymore.

My interest in self-denial and chastity is coupled with an interest in cuckolding. What excites me is the idea that I would be made to watch other men have orgasms and ejaculations but not be able to myself. I would not even be able come in contact with a woman’s naked body other than to lick clean any male cum that might have gotten on her during her time with another man (whether that be licking clean her breasts; sucking the cum out of her pussy; or getting a deep kiss from her while she releases her man’s cum from her mouth into mine).

Today is Day 6 of my training (though my last orgasm was actually on Dec 27, so we are getting into that nasty 7-14 day stretch of insane sexual urges and the need to have an orgasm). My balls feel larger than normal, and I awoke with a raging hard-on.

I have ordered a chastity device and will start wearing it periodically, especially if I feel my self-control slipping away.

As instructed by Mistress T I will periodically update her blog with my progress, frustrations, etc. Follow my progress here:

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Jian Ghomeshi: Rough Sex vs. Assault

A special re-connection…

UK: Spring Trip 2014

What do you see?

The FemDomme Uniform

Fancy-Ass Session

An unusal day in the life…

From Tolerance to Acceptance.

The Year of Chastity: by Slave Self Denial